So I have this new idea..

...for a sci fi series.  but as usual, i am struggling with the opening part. also, my left shift key has stopped working, and so, excepting for the title above, which i typed with the right shift, there is a serious lack of capital letters.  as you see.  and i've tried cleaning it.  but it doesn't work.  its not entirely easy for me to just use the right shift key instead either, as i use the left regularly.  so, its a fun night.  and probably i will be investing in a new keyboard. take care all.

I am tired..

.. tired.  Need to sleep.  Things are changing a little again.  Or maybe not so much changing as I am coming to want to finally deal with them.  Or have to deal with them.  I don't know.  I am also working on an entirely new story.  Which is a change for me and a breath of fresh air.

I seem to be jumping through different feelings right now from one sentance to another.  But overall, life is good. Take care everyone.

Me.

New Adventure Awaits...

"It is conceivable that some great unexpected mass of matter should presently rush upon us out of space, whirl sun and planets aside like dead leaves before the breeze, and collide with and utterly destroy every spark of life upon this earth... It is conceivable, too, that some pestilence may presently appear, some new disease, that will destroy not 10 or 15 or 20 per cent of the earth's inhabitants as pestilences have done in the past, but 100 per cent, and so end our race... And finally there is the reasonable certainty that this sun of ours must some day radiate itself toward extinction... There surely man must end. That of all such nightmares is the most insistently convincing. And yet one doesn't believe it. At least I do not. And I do not believe in these things because I have come to believe in certain other things--in the coherency and purpose in the world and in the greatness of human destiny. Worlds may freeze and suns may perish, but there stirs something within us now that can never die again."

H. G. Wells, 1902

I Read That...

...Ray Bradbury whom just passed away made himself write at least 1000 words a day.  Good idea! Great writer, you will be missed.  My deepest respect and condolences to his family and friends.

I can see why he did this, it keeps the motivation going and it keeps you at a keyboard even if you are not writing anything real, or what you might precieve at the time to be 'real'.  Because great ideas can come from anywhere. 

Maybe I should try and do that too.  

"Don't think. Thinking is the enemy of creativity. It's self-conscious, and anything self-conscious is lousy. You can't try to do things. You simply must do things."

--Ray Bradbury.

I am disappointed.... [and probably can't spell]

You know, this blog was a place I go to say what is on my mind, even if no one is listening.  Even if its not always something good.  Even when I struggle with telling the people whom my frustrations are about.

You see, I am a serious writer.

I invite people two write with me because I want to share with them something I love.

Taking that into consideration, I know that writing is far more important to me than it is to them.  It is evident.  I know that getting into it.  I understand.

But, if they can't/are not able to get into it --- don't pretend you are for the sake of me.  The same goes for if you are too busy.

I get that.

What I don't get, is pretending to like it for my sake.  What i don't get, is your telling me you want to write, and you enjoy it --- and then; never doing it, or finding some reason to go offline soon as I come online.

Just tell me.

Don't drag me along.  Don't pretend you like it just for the sake of not hurting me.

I can tell.  I understand, you not wanting to hurt me.  But it hurts more that you pretend.

The story is always more wonderful by the input of others. 

This is something, I am absolutely passionate about.  And its ok if you aren't.  But don't drag me down by pretending you are.  Because I sit here day and night - waiting for you.  Holding back a story.  Wanting to just write.  I do admit I am dissapointed that no one shares that passion with me. 

“If you wake up every morning and the first thing you think about doing is singing, then you’re supposed to be a singer, girl.” -- Sister Act II

Thats how I feel about writing guys.  I want to share it with you, but please, don't pretend you like to do it just for the sake of me.  Thank you.

..to Dream and Discover

"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbour. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore.Dream. Discover." -- Mark Twain.

After all, my New Years Resolution this year -- is to live. :D

I am working on a new book at last. Officially, I am ten pages in. Which is great! I've finally got past the writer's block I've stumbled into. Its based on an idea I came up with just under a month ago. We shall see what happens in it because, even in writing it, sometimes I don't even know. Talk to you all later everyone. And Happy Groundhogs day! Six more weeks of winter weather, so I've heard. Doesn't bother me a bit though really. I kind of like winter. Its a great time of year. Take care.

No Writing Today Either...

...and I thought there might be. I have stuff out with people everywhere, but no. No fix to the problem mentioned in the posts below this either. Am not in such a bad mood tonight. I did hear from a couple of people I write with. Maybe tomorrow.

Still haven't finished those last two episodes of Numb3rs either. lol...

I Am So Bored....

...it is 12:53 in the morning. I am bored out of my mind. I tried to watch The Lazarus Project but just couldn't get into it really. Bleh. What's more, I am wide awake. I want to write. I want to talk to someone... but nope, no one is on, nothing to do. Bored.

Have I cleaned yet - nope. lol. Nope, nope, nope.

I could play World of Warcraft, but not really want to right now. not alot to do but run in circles there right now because I am waiting on my sister to register her account.

I have only two episodes of Numb3rs left, yup, and drawing them out long as I can. I simply do not want the show to end dang it! lol. Good, good show. Will probably watch it again.

So, probably I am going to play Mahjong on my phone for three hours and crash out. Even if I am not tired. Nothing else to do. I've been sitting and waiting on email now for two days. Two days. Ugh. Bleh... lol...

Nite nite everyone.

Getting Ready to Sleep...

...I have three episodes of Numb3rs left. A good show, for sure, as it's left me wanting more. This is one I will miss for sure, much better on my list than Ghost Whisperer, which was over all good but lacking. Waiting to see the last three episodes of Numb3rs before picking favorites though. :)

So, I heard from one of my writing partners tonight, after my post from last night or the night before that's very cool I think. I miss her. I miss the writing.

It seems my writing time may be growing, maybe. Let's hope. Lol. This is me trying to be optimistic and hopeful. But I do enjoy it and hope others do too.

Been trying to wind down a bit. Not worry so much. Someone I love very much recently removed alot of stress in my life. I guess I need to keep sight of that, that its not always about me.

Oh, and I've still not cleaned the house. Maybe tomorrow. And I must call my grandma too. And now to bed. Take care everyone. Goodnight.

So... Writing....

I am a writer.

It is my passion.

I've already written a two page rambling entry before this one that I did not post on this topic. You will learn that it is something about which I can go on and on and on.

So this is my first entry on this topic I believe. And the content of it will likewise be a bit scrambled as I've yet to sort it all out really in my head.

A couple points though, a couple questions that are in my mind. The first being that of why anyone would continuously tear down their main characters through aggressive and competitive writing? And then to wonder and get upset when others characters are honored and well liked when thiers are not? Yours is the hand that penned it -- you get what your writing infers.

Secondly, something else I've learned, writing scenarios in RPGs where the leader is kidnapped often does not stir a writing groups interest. I know, I've experimented with it -- and have found more often than not -- the writing group goes dead over the period of time these events take place in.

It may be something the lead person plans as an astounding and dramatic heart felt adventure. It tests loyalty, faith and trust, lots of heroics and passion between the lines. The sad fact about it is though, now that I've been on both sides of that coin; as having my lead character kidnapped in a story and having to help recover someone's lead character that is kidnapped in a story, often the scenario doesn't hold up as one expects.

I don't know why this is for sure. A lack of dynamics, maybe? I doubt it, because often the scenarios are full of color. When this is cornered with good directions for plays to go in it should work. But I think what it comes down to is maybe people feel left out.

More about that later, just a few notes I have made to think about. I will follow up soon. Take care.