Happy New Year:

So, this is the last post of 2011. For a odd-numbered year, I really have to admit -- it wasn't that bad :) Yes, there were ups and downs. But I've had some really good ups -- I got a new niece and nephew, Kayla and David; and they are precious. And, last April, I got to see, a dear, wonderful friend I've known for half my life again. Levi, you are precious to me too.

There were other things of course. Over all, a wonderful year. I am glad for my life, every bit of it, the ups and downs. I just wish it wouldn't go so fast. Cherish, everyone, cherish, every day. I didn't set resolutions this last year. This coming year, I think I will decide just to live.

Take care everyone, out there, have a happy, wonderful, safe New Year.

Oh yes, I must say, as for keeping this blog going, I think its looking up. :D

You Don't Expect It...

...you don't expect it to go so fast, an entire year. It seems like just yesterday was July 4, when the power went out in a thunderstorm exactly as it had the July 4 before. But it goes so fast. Or it seems like it was just April - which is a difficult month for me to face. And then suddenly its December, and you are looking at January again, with April right around the corner.

It goes so fast. So fast. Sit and enjoy it while you can. But also remember you have only one life to live, seriously, which speeds by. Putting stuff off til the next day eventually becomes the next week, the next month -- the next year. Then you wake up and you are older. And doing things may have been easier when you were ten years younger, and had more time.

So get up. Do something with it now. This second.

Enjoy it yes but balance it. Speaking from experience, don't let too much pass you by.

It's December...

...and my heart is heavy. I am feeling selfish tonight and not wanting to do something I really should for reasons that are in my interest more than in the interest of others, of family, of people whom need me most.

And that's not right.

Its not right to be so selfish, is it? Finally am at a point where I am doing something for me, and it feels wrong to say I don't want to loose that. Conflicted. Selfish. Maybe childish. I don't know.

We are supposed to be happy in December. Its the Season of Giving. The Season of Family? All of that good and happy stuff. And yet -- I don't feel it. I feel nervous and scared and everything else instead. I am not always a happy and encouraging person as this blog might sometimes show. In fact, I am the most pessimistic person I know.

But its December. Again. At last. Maybe things will get better? I don't know. This year flew, faster than the last two did, it seems like it was April only yesterday -seriously- I am one of those people whom sees the years flying by. Then it seems like it was I was celebrating July 4 over a pizza and a power outage just yesterday too. Then it seems like it was my nephew's birthday in August....

Time Flies. Its December. I am repetitive yes. Have a good nite, everyone.